Sudden Panic!

I just wrote an e-mail to a friend and suddenly started panicking . . . Yikes!

I am not ready for this little girl. Sure, I have clothes for her and a car seat and I'm registered at the hospital and I have been taking my vitamins and seeing the doctor, but I am really getting down to the wire here.

Well, I have 11 weeks, give or take, but what if she comes early? It could only be a month!!!!

There are still so many things that need to be done. We have to get the room painted and buy furniture. I am still teetering on the whole formula/breast-feeding deal, as well as the cloth/disposable diaper option. Plus, I haven't signed up for lamaze or baby classes.

I have seriously changed about 3 diapers in my life. And I am about to be alone with a baby who will need to have that done for her very shortly. I have maybe served 3 bottles in my life, and I have certainly never breast-fed. I am 30 years old!!! Does this all seem crazy to anyone else??!?

We have a crib, but no mattress (or sheets). We have 2 bottles (no formula), and 1 bag of diapers (which I'm guessing will last a day or two).

At work, they're asking me how long I expect to be out, but I have no clue. I get 6 weeks paid in full (8 for C-section), but can take vacation time and/or FMLA . . . I just don't know where the breaking point is -- I don't want to come back to early, but I don't want to go stir-crazy after staying out of work for so long.

I even tried filling out a birth plan, but I have no clue as to whether I want ice chips while in labor. I haven't thought about giving birth -- I 've been too busy thinking about being pregnant.

I guess I need to get my butt in gear.